Ulyses Razo, Spring — New Papers

the sun comes and I find I can no longer emotionally participate
in the lives of children playing soccer in the park

I buy some shoes
then regret them

I remember something I wrote that revealed I had it in me to suicide
not too far from where I’m standing

when my therapist asked me what I wanted out of life I said love, she
said lol. we all want that

wet behind the ears
I stand behind the guy getting kissed on the escalator

and know fate is real
sometimes when I come home I think wouldn't it be crazy

and just like a tale of winter
to enter my room and find the lights on

and you sitting on the edge of my bed
pouring coffee into the peace lily

crying when a friend came in
I said I was sick

and was